Things have moved on from our last BFN. My sister Emma is well underway to signing up and being our donor in June/July. So much paperwork, tests and flights to be organised. Emma is 35 with 3 kids of her own and has recently finished breast feeding her youngest. They do not plan to have any more children.
Aunty Flo decided to come on CD 40 this month which was yesterday so we can get Dusty's Pill regime underway.
I am back at work a couple of days a week which is a nice distraction and we need the money to pay for our next exxy donor cycle.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
where is that 2nd blue line?????
I have never been a big one for taking HPTs (home pregnancy tests). But this morning at 4.30am and 8.30 am I took two different ones. Both BFN (Big Fat Negative). I had a tiny bit of spotting last night and sore BB are less sore now. Only 1 sleep left until the final Blood Test. Not expecting a surprise but you always have a little hope hidden away somewhere.
Next I need to think about where we go from here, as obviously my eggs are running out and their quality is pretty poor too. They are probably affected by returned endometriosis.
My little sister has offered to be my egg donor as she has completed her family, 2 boys, 1 girl and is seemingly quite fertile. She would love to help me experience the joy of being a parent. It will all revolve around her schedule and what she wants to do. A new journey for us all.
Next I need to think about where we go from here, as obviously my eggs are running out and their quality is pretty poor too. They are probably affected by returned endometriosis.
My little sister has offered to be my egg donor as she has completed her family, 2 boys, 1 girl and is seemingly quite fertile. She would love to help me experience the joy of being a parent. It will all revolve around her schedule and what she wants to do. A new journey for us all.
Monday, April 7, 2008
14 days since EPU
Today is 14 days past Egg Pick Up and 2 days away from the big Blood test to see if this IVF cycle has been successful. I am nervously waiting to see if Aunty Flo arrives before the big test, the longer she stays away, the more excited I am becoming. This rollercoaster ride never seems to end, or rather never ends in positive news. Being on the IVF rollercoaster means constant disappointments and a chipping away of my hope of becoming a mother one day.
Every niggle down below is analysed, scrutinised, (checked out with the rush to the loo!), and all the possibilities thought about, "Is AF coming", "Is my uterus undergoing changes as the embryo grows and embeds itself deeper", "Is this good", "Is this bad". But nature has to take its course and there is nothing I can do to push it along or change the outcome now.
Every niggle down below is analysed, scrutinised, (checked out with the rush to the loo!), and all the possibilities thought about, "Is AF coming", "Is my uterus undergoing changes as the embryo grows and embeds itself deeper", "Is this good", "Is this bad". But nature has to take its course and there is nothing I can do to push it along or change the outcome now.
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